I spent a very quiet New Years Eve by myself as I do every year. Don't be sad, it is just as I desire. When my girls were little, I told my Soulmate to choose something (anything) to do once or twice a year with his daughters (without me) that would last a lifetime. He chose skiing. Perfect, because I don't ski and had no desire to learn, lug all of that equipment around, be cold, have a snotty nose, go up and down a hill for no reason. So every year, he packs those two up and heads for Big Sky, Montana for 4 or 5 days of skiing. I'll admit the years when they were little were tough, lots of crying, lost mittens, frustration, but he persevered and now they pack their own bags, get their own gear on and look forward to that time with just their Dad. I don't go and look forward to the solitude of those days to recharge, regroup, rearrange and realize. I don't do much, read, rest, sleep (alot), take baths, eat snacks for dinner, answer the phone only if I feel like it. Lot's of people are appaled that I would be ALONE on New Years, but for me it is perfectly symbolic, we come into this world alone, we leave alone, and for me saying goodbye to the last year alone and welcoming the new year alone is just as it should be. As for the rest of my days, they are filled to the brim with so many great people, positive energy, lots of laughter, tons of love, and bright, bright lights!! I'm so excited for 2012 and will always look back very fondly on all of my blessings from 2011.
